my back is SUPA DUPA RED!
itchy itchy, just can't stop scratching !
=/

well i did tan my skin till a little darker , but i want those nice bronze coloured tones ):

lobster red skin xD

nth to blog about , off to maple :))
[updated:)]

i think i dont have a house to stay soon :(
im serious , i saw tha RED LETTER being sent to my house =/
i really think that my everything is coming to an end soon,
& i don't feel like going to school anymore.
this is no joke , and neither im being possessed or something
maybe i will just find a part time job, i know im wasting money
but i really dont feel like studying anymore
im speaking from my heart , i don't have the mood to study anymore.
im just a burden , USELESSS
die die die die die die die , vivian


i have been thinking about different methods of ending my life ,
nothing works for me!
why just cant let me die better? i dont have a good life afterall
if im dead
i wont be a burden to friends, teachers , loved ones anymore.
i really feel like committing suicide
now i really feel like crying out loud , but i just couldn't do it.
i do appreciate all my sweet friends in ite who cares for me (:
maybe i might say goodbye to you all soon .
even my parents still want me to go school, but i just dont feel like
i will try to find a pt job maybe,

i dont want anymore problems for my family
neither anyone will passed away
& dont forced any of my family to suicide
why why why , is always my family who have all the karma
what i have done wrong , or what my family had done wrong?
why is heaven just so unfair?

i want to die , die die die die die
god, please grant my wish
& i want my family to lived happily , after my death
i want to see them alive , and healthy

no body just no one will understand how im feeling now