i no longer do have a life , i wanted to end it sooner or later
my future route is actually , being planned nicely
but i dont know why
everything , yes just everything
is all ruined!

why cant i choose my own future path?
what i have learnt or studied is
NOT I WANTED

when just when can i choose my own .
no matter how i study
im always hiding my true self inside
yes, lecturers do says i dont have any confidence

that's because , this course is not i wanted
no matter how much effort i had put in
everything that came out , is the same

parents kept on asking, what do i really want.
what is my real interest ?

well , i knew myself , im very sure what i really wanted
what i had interest on
BUT
they just dont let me have the decision .

ever since im young , i always loved 2 things,
1)beauty , 2) nurse
plan A & B
after secondary graduation i wanted to go simei to forward my dream
be a world's beautician:)
as for nurse , im unable to choose , caus i did not take science.
just because one thing causes my future to CRUSHED
the distance , too far.
no choice i can only choose clementi , tourism (& i dnt like it @ all)

why is this so unfair ,
sister can archive what she loved to do , her interest in tattoo arts
why cant i archive being a beautician?

just so unfair ,

i remain silence is better
mapling peepos
only maple can brightens my day
how i wish my life can be like maple.